Now. Really this time. I can’t rot here any longer. I can’t sit around and wait for something to happen any longer. It won’t. Not without my input.
I kinda know what. I kinda know how. And I mostly know the rest of the details. What is missing? Me. The I part of things. The bit where I actually decide for me what I want to do.
What might that be? It’s a lot of things, but it is for sure, nothing I am doing now. It’s all the dreams I have languishing. It’s all the thoughts I have dying. Its all the things I am not doing yet I know I should.
So how/why/now? I don’t know, all I know is this is not it. This is not the life I want, nor the life I am supposed to be living. I’m alive for a reason. Still alive. And this end I must meet head on. Face to face and eyes open.
I’ll never be anyone but me. But the me I can be is much more than what I am today. What I am now. It keeps getting lost in the day to day. The now. But the now is all there is, so if I don’t do it now, when? Never.
I’ve worked hard to become who and what I am. And I do not regret a second of it. But I know that if I don’t change me soon, this is all I will ever be. And thats just not good enough. Some people are destined for greatness, some will change the world. I am a facilitator. I accept that now. I may not impact things in the way I want, but I know now that its up to me to help them happen.
So lets start now. Lets make this week the last and first week.
Lets change things. Together we can. Together we can.