How many times
The realization of our humanity is a humbling but quickly forgotten experience.
Things we learn everyday, over and over, continue to shape us.
Who you are is up to you.
No matter where you go, there you are.
Who you are is entirely up to you.
Find something you enjoy and spend you time focused on that.
It’s probably best if you pick something that is beneficial.
Time
It’s time.
Now. Really this time. I can’t rot here any longer. I can’t sit around and wait for something to happen any longer. It won’t. Not without my input.
I kinda know what. I kinda know how. And I mostly know the rest of the details. What is missing? Me. The I part of things. The bit where I actually decide for me what I want to do.
What might that be? It’s a lot of things, but it is for sure, nothing I am doing now. It’s all the dreams I have languishing. It’s all the thoughts I have dying. Its all the things I am not doing yet I know I should.
So how/why/now? I don’t know, all I know is this is not it. This is not the life I want, nor the life I am supposed to be living. I’m alive for a reason. Still alive. And this end I must meet head on. Face to face and eyes open.
I’ll never be anyone but me. But the me I can be is much more than what I am today. What I am now. It keeps getting lost in the day to day. The now. But the now is all there is, so if I don’t do it now, when? Never.
I’ve worked hard to become who and what I am. And I do not regret a second of it. But I know that if I don’t change me soon, this is all I will ever be. And thats just not good enough. Some people are destined for greatness, some will change the world. I am a facilitator. I accept that now. I may not impact things in the way I want, but I know now that its up to me to help them happen.
So lets start now. Lets make this week the last and first week.
Lets change things. Together we can. Together we can.
iChing – Hidden Dragon – Do Not Act
“The main thing is not to expend one’s powers prematurely in an attempt to obtain by force something for which the time is not yet ripe”
Found this quote in my journal from 1996. Liked it enough to share again 14 years later.
An interesting side not, the very first true coin flip reading i did from the i Ching ended up with P’i – Standstill – which is now tattooed on my left arm.
From the journal entry sometime novemberish 1996:
“When ribbon grass is pulled up, the sod comes with it. Each according to his kind. Perseverance brings good fortune and success. Hiding from the public eye.”
Still
The i-ching keeps telling me to stand still. P’i. Again for the third time. I don’t know what to make of this repeat repeat repeat repeat fortune. I get it. Stop screwing up. But I can’t stand here alone much longer. I need to get out, I need to get back up and fight again.
pi tattoo
On a more positive note, a fat black squirrel has been coming to my feeder lately. She’s been there almost every morning when I open the shades. Note to self: more squirrel food.
